I have now completed two solo outings, one with my puppy pal and one without. Let me tell you, I had troubling mixed feelings before heading out. I was equally exhilarated and nervous. As much as I want to go camping, to spend time in the wild, I had serious trouble with doubt and anxiety. Nonetheless I pushed myself to go. The mantra, “I am confident, I am capable, I am safe”, helping me to feel grounded, to relax.
So glad I did! I had two amazing outings. One in the far reaches of the Siskiyou Mtns. with thunderstorms, signs of bear activity everywhere and no other people around at all. The other I had a brief encounter with a houseless person that touched me very deeply. Through both outings I was drenched with nature bathing. Lost sleep in the dark, dark wilds, of course, but I looked fear right in the face and I didn’t chicken out. This is wild and beautiful country! Let’s Go Campin’!
(Between trips I have had two pretty significant “Flare-ups” of my Chronic Disease(s). I’m not going to say they’re cause and effect. However, it has set me back a bit. My depression peaks when these events occur because I body holds my spirit back. So hang in there with me. Thanks for all your encouragement so far!)
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